Don’t get me wrong, I am in love with Kimm’s words and message in Beloved Mess. The problem is that I just want to consume it whole, in one day, not drag it out over the two weeks I spend with each book. On the other hand, I also want to only read maybe one paragraph or sentence at a time so that her words sink deep into my heart. I want Kimm’s book to become mine.
I love rules, adore them. I love to know exactly what I should be doing and being able to measure myself against something to see how I’m doing. Yes, I know. This is a problem for me when I want to live in grace and trust in God’s words. Sometimes, it’s almost easier to just throw my hands up in the air and help Satan along by proclaiming, “Yep. I was right. I’m no good.” It’s a natural-man kind of way out of using faith and relying on my testimony of what I know in my heart about the Good News(!) of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Faith and testimony can be hard to rely on in this tangible outward focused world, but if we can remember we are spiritual beings and look to those quiet faith-filled places inside of us, it can be a little easier to remember.
I have felt and believed much of Kimm’s message for many, many years, but her words make it feel fresh and new and like I’m hearing the idea for the first time. Quoting Kimm… “When the law has done its work in exposing what needs to come into the light and we have been crushed by the weight of our wrongdoing, there is hope. We have something greater than ourselves to look to – the good news of a Savior who came to rescue us from the law and set us free from guilt and shame.” Hope and freedom all from one source – the true Source. My heart wants to fly around the room in joy!