As I sit here, one of our dogs is in my office with me, only he is struggling to figure out how to get out of the door that is slightly cracked. He can get a bit of his nose through, but doesn’t realize that he just needs to push a little and he’ll be through. That’s how I’ve been the last few days. I’ve been sitting at a door trying to get through it, but not sure how. Sometimes, growing and learning are hard. It can come as a hurdle – suddenly and challenging and with one pop, you’re over. Other times, it’s gradual and over time, smooth, like you barely notice you’ve been going up a hill and down the other side. Occasionally, it’s like hitting a brick wall that takes pain and energy and a huge amount of effort. I, finally, feel like I’ve come to the other side of this particular one and, in the end, I’ve decided to give God the benefit of the doubt. I believe He’s trying just as much as I want Him too, but I know that He will not force anyone to do anything and that includes me. He won’t force me to trust Him or to obey Him or any other thing I can think of. I have to let go and, for me, that is the hardest of all. In the OA book today the message was to “act as if it’s true,” which boils down to have faith. Have faith that God is working on your behalf, whether it’s to turn your passion into a job, to turn your heart to Him more fully, or to do any of the things we may want. Just act as if God is doing those things already.
I am down to my last day with Designed to Pray and I am a little disappointed by that. I have learned some amazing things about prayer and about myself. Some personal reflection is good once in awhile. Tomorrow, I will have the very last chapter to wrap-up and then, I will move on to another good (I hope!) book that jumps out at me from a bookshelf.
This is all so interesting to me – how God has used all of my strengths to do this simple, yet strange, thing. To read, ponder, pray, and study and then, to share it via this technology. We have social media sites where people are interested in the quote graphics I create and who, hopefully, come closer to God through them. At least, maybe it opens a door. In Daily Reflections (the AA book), it said to share what we have learned. Here I am. Sharing what I am learning. Although, I’m not sure if it’s for you or for me.
In closing, I just want to share with you my hope for you, even though Moroni said it first,
…be faithful in Christ…may Christ lift thee up, and may his sufferings and death, and the showing his body unto our fathers, and his mercy and long-suffering, and the hope of his glory and of eternal life, rest in your mind forever.
And may the grace of God the Father, whose throne is high in the heavens, and our Lord Jesus Christ, who sitteth on the right hand of his power, until all things shall become subject unto him, be, and abide with you forever. Amen.