Four Questions on this Last Day

I like to end my time with each book by asking myself four questions. I hope my answers might be of some help to you. 1. Is the book based in scripture? While the book is based in scripture it uses far more personal stories than scripture to make the points. There is nothing wrong…

The Close

I have finished not a fan this morning. I didn’t realize I only had less than a page to go yesterday or I would have done it then, but it allowed me to see how God guides and directs me at just the right moment with just the right message. At the end of the…

Progress and Triggers

This story is a bit about me and a bit about not a fan today. I have been doing well with the bipolar except for the panic attack last Saturday, which was separate from the bipolar disorder. I have had mental stability for a whole month now, which has made me feel a bit bored…

Just for Today

I think that should be my new mantra. “Just for today I can…” Life mixed in with my constant need to stay on a routine can seem pretty overwhelming. I am constantly pushing myself – the better I feel, the more I add to my plate. I think we know what comes next, I have…

My Head or My Heart?

How did August happen? It’s too soon. I am excited for cooler weather, which should take place in about November. We don’t get much of an Autumn here and I miss it – apple orchards, scarves, mittens, wood stoves. Aahh. We are going to have to visit our daughter in the mountains more, at least…

Crazy Friday Morning

So, this is the car I drive and I love it. It’s kind of a luxury car – wood steering wheel and dash, power leather seats. You get the idea. I went to bed at my normal time Thursday night, to awake Friday morning with an email(?) from my husband telling me that I need…

Slave or Servant?

Turns out those two word are synonyms and both are words used in chapter 10 of not a fan. I don’t often think of myself as either. It seems that being a servant implies choice, but in reading, Kyle discusses some types of slaves who choose that title out of love for the family they…

A Little Pondering

I once had someone call me a zealot (a person who has very strong feelings about something and who wants other people to have those feelings). It made me feel a bit ashamed and also had the unhappy effect of dampening my desire for righteousness. As I’ve grown older, my desire to be a zealot…

Chapter 5

Oh, boy. This is a big, important, in your face, let’s get down to business chapter and one I have been harping on about for years. It’s called “Following Jesus or Following the Rules?” Don’t read that wrong, you should still follow the rules, but it’s got to go back to the past couple of…

Everything

Chapter four ends with a profound question: “If following Jesus cost you everything, would it still be worth it?” Oh man. Everything?!? When I read this question, I couldn’t help but think of Job in the Old Testament. Talk about losing everything. The most amazing part of his story is that he didn’t even complain…

Interfering in My Life

Kyle begins his book talking about the difference between belief and commitment. A member of his congregation told him that he felt like Kyle was trying to interfere with his life. That caused me to stop and consider how often I have felt like Father is interfering, getting in the way of what I want….